Life....is what you make it

I have been silent because alot of stuff has been going on.  Not anything to be concerned with, just life.  Life goes on even when you want it to stand still...

I have been walking/jogging 3 times a week so I can get healthy.  I have been trying to Weight Watch again and I lost 7 pounds...then I got lazy and sick so points aren't being counted until I feel like I can eat again (I am saying this as I am drinking a glass of wine so I am guessing I am ok).  My clothes are fitting better and I feel good.  I still hate exercise but I am looking forward to extra yoga classes in the summer.

Kids are moving up grades and with that comes parties and goodbyes.  The Hummingbird is saying goodbye to elementary school.  The Diva has a mini Prom coming up (OMG!!).  A very good friend and ally has decided to send her kids to private school.  It makes me sad and happy at the same time.  Sad because I have lost one of the best voices for public school I have ever had.  Happy because her kids will likely thrive - but I will miss her fighting the fight next to me.

Everyone in this house has attitude that both my husband and I put blame on the other.  Lots of talkback and lots of growing up.  They are testing their boundaries and its fine.  Its annoying and I don't like it but its a part of life and I have to deal.  The Boy is really pushing back on almost everything and instead of screaming at him (which makes him scream at me and so on) I have taken to calmly saying "Do not yell at me" and that seems to work...for now...

I am very happy that school is about to end.  I have been sick of school since January - homework has been out of control (for The Diva anyway) and school obligations are insane.  It seems that every week there is another check to be written or another presentation that I "need" to be at...and I am done with all of it.  This Friday is a Fun Carnival day and I told the President of the PTO "If you really need me I will be there but I would like to sit this one out, please."

I was given an award for Girl Scouts for my years of service and My Hummingbird's troop earned their Bronze Award.  We are hoping that The Diva and a friend can earn the Silver Award over the summer.  I am considering co-leading The Boy's Troop since no other parent will come forward and this is important to me and he loves it.

Given all of this I haven't been able to go to my UU church at all.  Its been too much and I need the break.  I am glad they are winding down too (our church closes for the summer) so I can have a bit of time again. I may be joining a committee there and my purpose for this is to wave the pagan flag and remind people that its not all about Judeo/Christian here.

I haven't really been able to circle at home either.  I have tried to take moments and I feel The Goddess near me but I am in the middle of my own stuff and She knows it.  When this used to happen I would feel guilty of not worshipping but lately I have heard in my heart "I will always be here, and I know your love.  Do what you have to do."  It seems She is a Mom, alright, and understands.

I am feeling comfortable in my skin and I almost feel that I do not have to fight as hard against it or for it.  I am feeling OK.  I am a little lonely but that is a good thing.  I am feeling a bit creative here and there but not the stress of "I HAVE TO DO THIS".  Its been peaceful and its been fine.  

Summer will come and I am sure that it will bring stress and chaos of living the life of Homemaker but for now I am happy to welcome it in.  May you also be able to welcome it in...

Peace
DM